Anonymous discussion · Need to talk
I am tired of people thinking a shop means money is coming every day
I am tired of people thinking a shop means money is coming every day. This morning the wholesaler reminder came while I was adding up yesterday’s sales. I had enough in the account for that payment, but if I make it then the electricity bill and my house expenses will sit there. Not unpaid exactly, but waiting. This is how the whole month is going now, one payment looking at another payment. My son asked if I can pay for a repair in the house this week. He did not ask in a bad way. He just said it because usually I will somehow manage. I told him the shop is slow and he said we can see next week. That next week word is coming too much in our house. I felt angry with him, then immediately felt bad because he is also not asking for some luxury thing. The repair is needed. Still I wanted him to understand that I cannot keep becoming the answer for every small amount. I opened the banking app again after lunch, though I already knew the balance. The supplier payment is still pending in my mind more than in the app. I moved money from one side to another last month and told nobody. Even I am not clear now which money is for what. My son thinks because I own the shop I have some reserve kept somewhere. I have not told him that savings are reducing. If I tell, then he will start worrying and I will have to say it is fine when it is not fine. Tonight I am supposed to make the payment. I am looking at the reminder and delaying it for another hour, as if one hour will change the account. I know the repair matters and I am irritated that it matters now. I don't know whether to pay the supplier first or tell my son no this time.