Anonymous discussion · Need to talk
My close friend from med school posted her engagement photos in our old group today
My close friend from med school posted her engagement photos in our old group today. Wedding date also fixed apparently. I congratulated her, obviously, but then just sat there feeling horrible about myself. She has done nothing wrong. I am happy for her somewhere. But it feels like everyone is moving into the next stage and I am still in hostel, exams and hospital work, dependent on my family, with no proper idea when my life will even start. I chose this path, so why am I acting like someone forced me? The worst part is people will now compare us, especially at home. I’m already tired of marriage questions. What if I finish training and still have no partner, no savings, nothing except more work? This is petty, but part of me wants the wedding planning to become difficult so I don’t have to watch everything go smoothly. I feel guilty even typing that. Do I reply properly now or wait until I stop feeling so jealous?