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Meri mother ne abhi message kiya ki fee transfer kar du
Meri mother ne abhi message kiya ki fee transfer kar du? Aur maine form close kar diya. Bas itna hi. Laptop ke side mein half-filled steel bottle, folded notes aur missing document ki checklist hai jo main do baar rewrite kar chuki hoon. Six months se prepare kar rahi hoon bolti aa rahi thi, but honestly zyada time timetable banane, notes arrange karne aur ghar par vague updates dene mein gaya. Mujhe lagta tha form kholungi toh actual progress ka pata chal jayega. Ab deadline tonight hai aur ek document bhi missing hai. Mujhe samajh nahi aa raha incomplete submit karun ya deadline jaane du. Part of me chahta hai deadline khatam ho jaye, decision nahi lena padega. But phir regret bhi hoga. Maa paise bhejne ko ready hai, aur maine unhe sach nahi bataya ki main kitna stuck hoon. Log bolenge “abhi bhi kar sakti ho”, but woh sunke aur irritation hoti hai. Kisi aur ne aise last moment par honestly family ko bataya hai? I don’t want advice exactly, bas bolna tha somewhere.